Friday November 13th 2009 – More chores for Mistress Ana

Friday and having done my depilation and exfoliation yesterday, this morning i showered and gave myself the requisite enema before splashing on a touch of perfume and slipping into pale blue lace panties that matched the dress i had decided to take to wear for Mistress Ana today.  First though, i had a plumber to deal with so had to wear my male clothes over the top of the panties.  Fortunately, the plumber arrived more or less on time and so i was able to leave for Mistress’ house by 10.45am and arrived around 11.15.

i was surprised to see a large van parked outside as i arrived and felt a little apprehensive as i climbed the stairs.  However, there was no need for any apprehension on my part, the van belonged to a sales rep for equipment Mistress was purchasing for Her business in Thailand.  i made us coffee and we all three chatted until the rep left.  Mistress then showed me how the dead bolt on Her back door had broken and dispatched me off to the local hardware store to get a replacement which i did and fitted as soon as i returned.  Mistress then had me remake the bed downstairs for Her daughter is arriving this evening.  i made up the bed, secretly wishing that i could be still in service with Mistress when Her daughter arrived for Mistress has told me that Her daughter knows all about me and would dominate me also.  There is something even more poignant about serving Mistress and someone else being present and knowing of it, possibly having me serve them also.  It sort of makes the relationship and my position as slave more public.  While many would think this to be humiliating, to me it is a desirable part of being a slave.  There is much to be gained for me emotionally from being Mistress’ slave but if no one else knows of this or witnesses my servitude, it is diminished somewhat in its impact.  i have wanted to be owned and enslaved for so long, i need confirmation of my position underscored by the relationship being known to and witnessed by others.  Mistress has made it clear that this will happen before too long and so i know that my time will arrive but as i made up the bed for Mistresses daughter, i couldn’t help but dream and wish it was to happen later today.

Only once i had made up the bed was i able to change into the turquoise lace dress and matching medium sized turquoise stiletto heels that i had taken with me to Mistress’ house so that She could get an idea of other aspects of my wardrobe.  i wore no bra with this dress which delighted Mistress, who’s first instinct was to put Her hand inside the top and fondle my breasts, play with and suckle briefly on my nipples.  Ooohhhh, the sensation was electric.  my nipples were still tender from yesterday’s prolonged attention and the touch of Mistress’ fingers and then mouth sent delicious tingles right through my body.  i did not want Her to stop and was instantly aroused and at that moment, i was like putty in Her hands and She could have done anything to me or demanded i do anything for Her.  i have become addicted  to her and intoxicated in my love for and desire to serve Her.

The nipple play was only brief but it set me on fire and i felt very much aroused as i went off to do the ironing that i had been unable to finish yesterday.  Another chore but one that i have no qualms about for to me it is like a prayer or act of worship from me to Her and i do the work gladly and happily.  Once i had finished the ironing, there was time for me just to quickly sweep the floor before i had to take my leave.  The last time i shall see Her for several weeks due to our respective travel schedules.  However, Mistress allowed me a final taste of Her nectar before i departed and gave me instructions as to the chores She expects me to carry out whenever i am in town, even though She Herself might be away.  i drove away feeling sad that i shall not be able to see Her for such a long time but so happy that i am Her slave and that i have such a wonderful Owner to serve and devote my attention to.  Mistress reminded me that the CB-2000 must remain in place, something that others might consider a severe loss of liberty but which to me is a comfort knowing that She has complete control of my sexual function and wants me to remain entirely under Her control, even though i may visit other Dommes such as Goddess Joyce on my travels.  i will be seeing Goddess Joyce and i will most certainly be given chores to do by Her but Goddess Joyce accepts that i now belong to Mistress Ana and am essentially on loan to Her while i am in Peru. Furthermore, the thought that it will now be at least 2 months before i am even remotely likely to be granted another orgasm hardly entered my head in spite of feeling both emotionally and physically aroused by serving Mistress Ana today.  It may in time prove to become a challenge for me to bear but as i write, the memory of the orgasm i had yesterday will take a long time to fade and it was so much more profound than any masturbation that i shall endure my chastity for the reward of another such wonderful experience at the hands of my Mistress, Domme and Owner,

Friday November 6th 2009 – Frustration while with Mistress Ana and Her builders!

There was no email message from Mistress Ana this morning and so i depilated, exfoliated, showered, moisturised, and perfumed myself and slipped into turquoise lace bra and pale blue lace panties beneath my male clothes and headed off to Mistress’ house.  i arrived there a little late for as i was leaving home, my wife phoned to ask me to drop off Her spectacles at Her workplace, a small diversion but one which nonetheless made me later than i wanted to be.

i arrived at Mistress’ house and was not surprised to find builders on the scene.  Mistress was pleased to see me and to my delight, presented me with a gift from Thailand, a lovely pair of sling back, low heeled, open toed shoes in pink, grey and brown.  i was thrilled to receive them, especially as i have pink, grey and brown clothes that will go well with the shoes.  i am so very lucky to belong to such a thoughtful and caring Mistress.  Mistress also gave me some Thai chocolates and candies and made me feel very special.

As for the builders, they busied themselves around the place while Mistress and i sat and chatted over coffee.  i was not asked to change “en femme” so yesterday’s fantasy was never going to materialise, for which i was grateful although should Mistress have wished to see me so humiliated, i would not have hesitated for even a moment.  As we chatted, i realised that i had made a mistake with the making up of the bed in Mistress’ son’s room downstairs and know that i shall be punished for it.  Fortunately, it was not entirely my fault and Mistress will not be too hard on me for it.  W/we chatted a lot about Her son, who has now moved out, and his girlfriend and a very embarassing experience for Mistress’ garden slave, Lucy, who was busy working in the garden when seen by the son’s girlfriend who called for the police, suspecting Lucy to be a burglar.  This would have been the only burglar in history to rob someone and do their garden at the same time!

Mistress told me of the reaction of both Her daughter in law and also Her own daughter, both of whom are aware of the fact that Mistress has slaves who do chores for Her, Lucy in the garden and me in the house.  The daughter in law it seems has asked that i go and clean Her house and Mistress’ daughter would be delighted to have me crawl on all fours to worship Her feet.  Both are young, attractive women whom i would consider it an honour to serve should Mistress Ana require me to do so.  i belong to Her first and foremost and i truly adore Her and could only ever serve others at Her request or command.  i feel so fortunate to belong to Her and to be in service to such a wonderful Domme after searching so far and wide over many years, that i am devoted to Her service first and foremost and above all else.

W/we also chatted about travel and about Mistress’ desire to visit Peru on vacation with Her daughter, possibly next year.  This idea has got me very excited for it would be an opportunity for me to be clean shaven and “en femme” serving Mistress 24/7 for the duration of the vacation.  my mind is now racing with the possibilities of being their sissy tour guide for 2 or 3 weeks in Peru.  i know that i would be in heaven and i pray that it will actually come to pass.  i dream of going with Mistress Ana and daughter to the salon where i go with Goddess Joyce to get a pedicure and manicure together as well as going shopping together and doing all of the touristy things.  This whole concept will now occupy my mind and i shall dream and plan the whole vacation until it does become reality.

With the builders still busy around the house, Mistress and i went out for lunch and also did a little grocery shopping.  i felt a little frustrated at not being able to dress “en femme” today, it being one of the days of the week when i would normally spend the full day at work fully dressed with blouse, skirt, wig and jewellery but there was no resentment for i was spending time with my Mistress and Owner.  However, after lunch, with the builders still at the house, i had to take my leave having been unable to serve Mistress personally and as i drove away i felt incredibly horny.  i had so needed to serve Her that by the time i got home, i ached inside.  A genuine ache of real need such that time cannot go quickly enough for me between now and Tuesday when i return to serve Her.

Monday November 2nd 2009 – Mistress returns

i just love pink and once again chose pink lace bra and panties to wear beneath my male outer work clothes.  i was at work early and on the lookout for Mistress Ana coming online for i knew that She was due to arrive home from Thailand this morning.  i was not disappointed and was able to chat with Her a couple of times during the day.  Where i was disappointed though was being told that Mistress was going to Canberra tonight and will not return until tomorrow night.  Mistress needs to go to the Romanian Embassy in  person and so i will not be able to see Her tomorrow, something i was really looking forward to eagerly.  Still, i do not need to be too sad for Mistress still expects me to go to Her house and do some cleaning.  Her youngest son has moved out and left the place in quite a mess and so there will be a lot for me to do there tomorrow and i do love to do such chores for Mistress.  i see them as a form of worship and a means of demonstrating my love for Her and my acceptance of Her control over and Ownership of me.  Also, of course, i shall be “en femme” while there, essentially in my element.  i shall also look forward now to Friday.  Mistress wants to see me then and so i shall work very hard at my business to find the time to visit Her house again then.  In that vein, i worked late into the night today, not getting finished until close to midnight.

Wednesday October 28th 2009 – A chill in the air!

As i suspected, relations between my wife and i have cooled several degrees.  i have tried to act as if nothing is wrong, have tried to do even more things for Her today than usual but have hardly got more than a yes or no out of Her all day and certainly not a thank you for those things i have managed to do for Her.  It will stay like this for a day or two more yet but hopefully things will improve by the weekend.  We shall see.  Certainly i will continue to do whatever i can to improve things but there is no point in apologising and all i can do is try to make Her happy in whatever other ways might present themselves.

Today has also been full-on at work.  i was at work early wearing purple bra and lace panties under my male clothes and today, black, strappy 3″ stiletto heeled sandals.  Although busy, i did get to chat with Lady Dynah this morning.  Briefly, but enough to find out how She is and re-establish contact.  She has moved into a house now, still sharing with friends but seems a lot more settled now than She has been.  It was good to touch base with Her again and hopefully we can rebuild the close friendship we had.

This evening, i was able to chat with Mistress Ana.  i had had an email this morning saying i did not need to go to Her house on Friday and that Tuesday would do.  i am comfortable with this although i do so like going to Her house and doing chores for Her, it gives me a sense of purpose and is almost like an act of worship or adoration.  Mistress has become very special to me and i do love to do even the slightest thing for Her.  In any event, i can use the day at work on Friday to try and get further on top of my heavy workload and at least i will be at home all day on my own and so can be “en femme” for at least 8 hours!

i will go next to visit Her on Tuesday, the day after She returns from Thailand.  i will take Her the flowers then and no doubt She will have a number of chores for me to do, all of which i look forward to as much as i look forward to being with Her again.  Mistress asked me what i might like Her to bring back for me from Thailand and i really had not given the idea any thought.  i am very lucky indeed to belong to one so caring.  Mistress asked about my shoe size, Australian and/or USA 10 (wide) or 11, UK 8, but i doubt that they are likely to have shoes in that size there, the local people are generally much smaller than the average Australian.  In any event, much as i adore sexy high heeled shoes, and Mistress is well aware of that, i do not expect Mistress to bring me back any gift and shoes would be something i would of course treasure but would feel that i should contribute to the cost, either in cash or kind, kind over and above the call of duty (if a slave can ever go beyond the call of duty).  In the end, i told Mistress that i would appreciate anything small and feminine and left it to Her to decide.  Mistress has already been so generous with Her gifts that i really don’t like to ask for anything.

Ideally, i suppose, i would love to have something intimate that i could wear all the time and that would signify and confirm Her ownership of me.  The trouble with that idea though is that it would have to be something either sufficiently discrete that my wife would not notice it or something so ambiguous and subtle that my wife would not suspect anything significant in the wearing of it.  Neither alternative is really practicable.  i already wear the CB-2000 chastity device which is in itself a symbol of Her ownership and control, and am so far managing to keep its presence a secret from my wife.  i have an excuse in mind for the day that she discovers it mind You.  However, the cock cage is not something that is a public demonstration of my status for it is not visible or known to anyone but ourselves.  In fact, discretion really demands that there is nothing really that i could wear that would outwardly demonstrate my slave status to those in the know about the D/s lifestyle while at the same time not representing anything controversial to vanilla eyes.

Whatever gift Mistress might bestow on me, it will be greatly appreciated and i shall sleep on the idea overnight.  Who knows what brainstorm i might get by morning.

Thursday October 22nd 2009 – Back in service

This morning i woke early to be able to give myself a good enema, a requirement of Mistress Ana whenever i am to visit Her.  i used the bathroom in my office so as not to attract the attention of my wife, and gave myself four very good enemas, continuing until my resultant bowel movements were just water.  i had a meeting in the city first thing which dragged on a little and so i was 15 minutes late arriving at Mistress’ house.  She was not at home and so i let myself in, changed quickly into my maid’s clothes, pink bra and matching panties (the ones given to me by Mistress the last time i was with Her), black mini skirt and black top, white lace top stockings with white bows, white apron and black patent leather stiletto heels.  Today, needing to feel especially feminine as it had been so long that i was able to dress completely “en femme”, i also wore a fine gold chain and pendant given to me by a former Mistress, my ladies watch and hooped earrings.  i then set about doing some ironing while i waited for Mistress to return, She had left me a message to say that She would be back in half an hour.

i had not really begun ironing when Mistress returned and was accompanied by another male, Lucy, Her new garden slave who i had seen outside previously.  We were introduced and given rules of conduct by Mistress.  We are never to communicate with one and other and nor are we to be jealous of the other.  Not an issue as far as i am concerned.  Mistress delegated us both with various tasks and the three of us worked together in the kitchen to prepare a lunch which we all shared with a bottle of red wine.  All of this was lovely and our conversation ranged over a number of things and especially aspects of China that arose from my description of my holiday.

Shortly after lunch, Lucy had to leave.  i now knew that i was probably in for a beating.  This is a necessary aspect of our relationship for Mistress must re-assert Her superiority over me and it is never difficult for Her to find reasons for my deserving to be punished.  Today, i had forgotten to bring with me the small agate egg i had bought for Her while in China which added to the other things that Mistress had also considered worthy of punishment.  i climbed onto Her bed on all fours, pulled down my panties and counted each stroke She landed on my exposed butt, twenty altogether.  Yes, it hurt a lot but She could have continued further.  However, i am fortunate in that Mistress spares me a more severe beating because the danger of the marks being seen by my wife.  i truly appreciate this gesture, not just for the lesser pain but particularly because of the danger faced in my wife discovering welts across my rear.

Once my punishment was over, Mistress then had me on all fours on the floor as She put on Her new strap-on, which She had me suck until She turned me around and forcefully raped my ass.  This is not the first time Mistress has raped me and i have also been penetrated there by other Mistresses.  However, today, as Mistress thrust Her strap-on deep inside me, the first time, it really hurt.  The first push and entry is never comfortable for me but usually, once in, my muscles and sphincter relax and i begin to move in sync with Mistress.  Today, though, i was unable to do so.  the pain and discomfort continued and Mistress, fortunately sensed something was wrong, pulled out and then penetrated me again.  This time it was much less painful and it felt really good to be her fuck-toy.  i moved in sync with Her now, in little discomfort as She moved in and out, penetrating me as deep as the strap-on would go.  i was indeed Her whore.

Mistress realised that i had an extruded hemarrhoid and that this was the cause of my pain and discomfort and so treated my ass with ointment for hemarrhoids.  i then returned to my chores, washing and putting away the lunch dishes, hanging out laundry, stripping Her bed and putting the linen to wash while Mistress busied Herself getting ready to leave for Thailand tonight.  She had a number of instructions for me.  i must go and clean Her house and make up Her bed again on Tuesday as is my normal duty when She is away.  On Friday, i must take some flowers to Her house and leave a nice arrangement for Her – no gerberas, chrysanthemums or roses!  Tomorrow, i must go to the post office and post a few things for Her.  All of these i shall look forward to doing and will do them to the best of my ability and with a lot of love, thinking very fondly of Her as i do so.

i really enjoyed being back in Her service today, not only because i was “en femme” but also, and particularly becaue i need to have the sense of belonging, the sense of duty and obligation to Her and someone to whom i can look up to, adore and worship.  And i do adore Her and miss Her whenever She or i are travelling.

Friday September 25th 2009 – A brief meeting with Mistress Ana, My Owner.

Having arrived home in the small hours of Monday 21st, i returned to work the same day and one of the first things i did was to contact Mistress Ana and let Her know that i had returned home.  i was absolutely delighted when She told me that She wished to see me today.  i rose early and as soon as my wife had left for work, i set about shaving my body and giving myself a good enema, four in fact, wanting to be as presentable and clean as possible both inside and out.  When i arrived at Mistress’ house, i was surprised to see another car parked where i normally park.  i pulled alongside it with some trepidation, wondering if perhaps Mistress had invited a friend or friends over for me to serve also.  She has indicated that this will happen sooner or later and while i am happy to oblige, it is always a little unnerving when serving others who are unknown, wanting to do Mistress’ bidding as well as possible but not knowing how demanding will Her friends be.

However, i need not have worried because as i came around to the front of the house, i found another man, slave, weeding Her front garden.  i was not sure whether or not to acknowledge him and just said good morning as i rang the doorbell.  Mistress opened the door immediately and i stepped inside where i discovered that She had taken on this new garden slave.  Mistress also told me that She was pleased with the work that i had done while She had been away both in the garden and in the house and that Her son had given Her good reports of my efforts.  However, Mistress quite rightly divined that i must have misbehaved in Her absence, especially without the CB-2000 chastity device in place, and so would need to be punished.  It was true that i had succumbed to temptation and had reached an orgasm but not entirely intentional (see entry for August 24st).  While in Brazil and Peru, i had not so much as thought about masturbating, i had been too preoccupied with cramming as much work into such a short trip.

But punished i had to be and Mistress quickly had me naked and humbled with my legs cuffed to Her leg spreader and gave me a sound beating on both my ass and the tops of my thighs but, was careful not to beat me too heavily for fear of leaving marks visible to my wife.  i am very lucky to belong to Her for She exercises discipline over me in a considerate way.  While the punishment obviously hurt, it felt good to be entirely at Her mercy and to know that i am Hers.  Having beaten me, Mistress then had me worship Her so as to taste what i had been missing and to give me a reminder of the nectar that i will miss while i am away in China.  And it was just a taste.  Mistress knew i wanted to worship Her longer but did not allow it and left me thirsting for more of Her elixir.

Afterward, Mistress presented me with a beautiful matching shocking pink lace bra and boy-leg panties.  They are adorable and i could not get into them quickly enough.  As i said above, i am so very lucky to belong to such a considerate Domme.  i finished dressing by slipping into my maid’s outfit with white stockings and black patent heels.  Mistress loves the look, i am glad to say.  We then had coffee as Mistress took me through to Her office and showed me pictures taken on Her holiday in Europe.  It was fascinating to see Her with Her Romanian relatives and enjoying all sorts of activities with Her daughter and husband.  There were many pictures to go through and we chatted a lot about the different people in the pictures but especially about Her daughter who is very beautiful and has the most magnificent wardrobe purchased from stores in Dubai.  Mistress had returned with beautiful shoes from a designer that She had learned of through this blog.

Mistress’ husband, youngest son and daughter all know about me and Mistress has made it plain to me that She hopes one day to have me serve Her husband, also She had indicated that while She was away, should i have encountered Her son, he would not necessarily bother me but might ask me to service him orally in which case it was up to me.  Today, Mistress also confided in me that She was planning to have a day when She would have me with Her to serve a number of Her friends, both female and male, all Dom(me)s of course.  i have to say that whereas i would not go looking necessarily to orally serve others than Mistress and other males in particular, my nature is submissive and my need is to serve and provided this is required by Mistress, i will of course do so.  i have given myself to Her and i trust Her implicitly and know that She would not wish me to do anything with anyone that might be risky to my own well being.  Her demands of me might seem to others to be humiliating or perverted but to me they are not, they are requests of me to demonstrate my love for Her, my desire to please Her and my absolute obedience to Her and i see all such demands that She makes of me as being opportunities for me to demonstrate my complete trust in Her, my adoration of Her and acceptance of Her authority over me, something that deep inside i know i need to have.  When i think of the years that have passed when i knew i was submissive, knew i needed to serve a dominant lady and could find no one, and see also the number of submissive males and would be slaves who scour the internet trying to find someone to take them, i realise just how very fortunate i am to have met Mistress Ana and to have been taken into Her charge.  i adore Her and love every minute i spend serving Her whether in person or doing Her bidding in Her absence.  Even this blog is a service to Her and i feel bad whenever i fall behind in writing it.

We had lunch together and chatted a little more about Her plans for me, Her other slave, Paul and the new garden slave before i had to leave.  Disappointed that time flew by so quickly, i left knowing that while i remained free of the chastity device for the period of my forthcoming vacation in China with my wife, i would be putting the device on again as soon as i returned.  Strangely, i want to wear it and feel almost naked without it.  It is a constant reminder to me that i am Her possession and am not at liberty to do as i please.  Something for which i am grateful and for which i do not trust myself without it.

Tuesday August 25th 2009 – Out of chastity after 73 days!

Even though Mistress Ana had commanded me to remove the CB-2000 chastity device this morning, once i got to Her house, i did not rush off there immediately.  One might expect that after more than 10 weeks in the cock cage restraint i would be eager to remove it but the truth is that i have become accustomed to it and was a little fearful that my worshiping session might well prove to be a further undoing if i were to have another orgasm.

Also, i had planned to buy the plants today for Mistress’ garden and the nursery i was going to go to did not open until 9.00am so it was 8.45am before i left home.  i had already loaded my garden fork and spade into the car along with some large polyweave sacks for the removal of rubbish.  At the nursery, i found what i was looking for and managed to get a bargain, 8 plants that should have been $6.45 each for just $40 for the lot.

Once i arrived at Mistress’ house, i first went inside and found the usual basket full of laundry left by Her son.  i started the first cycle of washing and then went back out and began on the garden.  First, i removed the existing plants that Mistress does not care for.  This was more difficult than i anticipated and i broke the shaft of both my spade and my fork in doing so.  But i did get them out.  i then hoed and weeded the bed before planting my 8 plants.  By then, the first load of washing had finished and, it being a lovely day, i decided to hang it out to dry in the fresh air in the garden.  i did this after putting on the next load of washing.

Now, came the hour.  i went upstairs and stripped, then removed the CB-2000.  It felt strange not to have the weight there on my genitals.  i then knelt on the tiled floor of the bathroom and began my worship, reciting my oath while stroking my cock.  This felt so good.  i had taken a “Levitra” pill earlier because my doctor wants me to check their effectiveness in giving me an erection and have been unable to do so while ever in chastity.  As i knelt and stroked, the effect was electric and i was surprised at just how quickly i became hard.  Still not as hard as i used to get pre-prostate removal but harder than i have been in along time apart from when using the injections.  But, oh it did feel good and as i feared, i wanted to cum.  The temptation was there but i slowed down my strokes and took my mind off my cock and focused on my oath and practicing lapping with my tongue, repeating my oath over and over in my head while exercising my tongue. i have no doubt that any small trigger would have had me climax.  Any slight sensation on my nipples would have sent me over the edge but i kept my spare hand behind my back.

After 15 minutes, i had managed not to cum and, still erect, i pulled myself up off the cold tile floor and got dressed into my maid’s uniform and went into the kitchen and began washing dishes before cleaning the surfaces and the floor.  The effect of the worship took a while to wear off.  i felt aroused for some considerable time afterward and the freedom from the cock cage felt strange.  i focused on my chores, hanging out a second load of washing and putting in a couple of items on the hand wash cycle which ran while i finished cleaning.

By 1.30pm, all was done and i changed back to my male outer clothes and headed back to my office and to work.  Without the CB-2000, i can now stand to pee again but even that feels wrong somehow.  i have become used to sitting down to pee and i think i will continue to do so, chastity device or no chastity device.  i appreciate Mistress allowing me this freedom but somehow i hope it is only temporary for the time i am away with my wife because the physical freedom has also a psychological effect in that it reduces my sense of belonging, of being owned and controlled which is something i need and crave.  i know that i still belong to Mistress Ana but without the cock-cage, the constant reminder is no longer there.  The CB-2000 is in effect like a collar, it is a symbol of Her ownership of me and of Her control over me and the truth is, i miss it like i miss Her.

Monday August 24th 2009 – Chatting with Mistress Ana

For the first time in ages, Mistress Ana was online today and we managed to chat late this evening.  As i expected, She was not best pleased that i had had an orgasm last Friday and has made it plain that i will be punished for it and punished much more severely than last time.  This does not surprise me and i accept whatever punishment She decides is appropriate even though i do not enjoy or seek pain.  It is my lot as a slave to be punished for any misdemeanour and although i did not set out to have an orgasm, i should have more control and should have avoided it.

i told Mistress that i would be going to Her house tomorrow to clean and to do some gardening.  To my surprise, She has told me that once i am there, i am to remove the CB-2000 chastity device and worship fully, as decreed by Mystress World and then tomorrow i am to report on how i felt, in detail.  Also, when i asked whether i was to replace the cock cage afterward, She told me to leave it off for She did not wish to interfere with my forthcoming vacation with my wife.  i truly appreciate this but am now anxious about tomorrow for once the cock cage is removed and i spend 15 minutes worshiping and stroking, i fear that i may become over excited and climax again.  However, i shall do my level best to avoid such an occurrence.

Mistress is now back in Thailand after Her vacation in Europe.  She is expecting to be home on September 2nd – the same day that i will leave for South America so sadly we will not be able to get together until my return and then we will have only a week before i head off again.  i plan to give Her house a really good clean when i go there next week.

At work today, things were back to normal with permanent staff around so no chance for me to dress “en femme” or use the breast pump.  As ever though, i wore bra and panties under my male clothes, purple satin bra with matching thong and lace panties.  i was also able to wear a pair of brown high-heeled ankle boots while at my desk.  i told Mistress that i would not be using the breast pump for a while and that i would try to get a good supply of domperidone while in Peru.  She does so want me to lactate and i share that ambition wholeheartedly.  This lull in my efforts is certainly only temporary.

Thursday July 23rd 2009 – Hair today, gone tomorrow!

Mistress Ana had asked me to visit Her today for two main reasons, the first being for me to do her hair and the second to give me a key to Her house so that i can continue to do my chores and keep Her place clean and tidy while She is away.  She leaves tonight for a 5 week vacation in Europe and so it will be some time before i get to serve Her in person once more.  However, i will still be serving Her while She is away for She has left me with a number of tasks to do before She returns as well as the duty of keeping Her house clean.

i arrived just after 12.00 noon, a little later than i had hoped but i had had to deal with tradesmen visiting my house to quote for some repair work after the storm damage of a couple of weeks back and this delayed my departure.  Mistress was in the throes of packing, there were cases and bags everywhere and She had an enormous amount of stuff, mostly gifts for Her people in Thailand and things She was taking to Europe for Her aunt.  So much chocolate!  Apparently chocolate is expensive and poor quality in Thailand and Mistress likes to give Her people there a treat.

My first job today was to dye Mistress’ hair.  i have never done this for anyone before and so it was a real learning curve for me, especially as Mistress has preserved a grey streak in Her hair for personal reasons which i am honoured to have been told but will not divulge here.  So, Mistress showed me how She avoids getting the hair colouring on the streak and showed me how to mix the colour and work it first into the roots and then all over.  Once that was done, i helped Her with Her packing, estimating weights of suitcases and other bags and closing and sealing them as well.

Once the colour in Her hair had set, She showered and had me bathe Her using exfoliating scrub and gloves.  i did my best but apparently i have much to learn in this area also.  i did not like to presume as where i should rub and scrub and left Her altar untouched.   i will be punished for this and for other misdemeanours on Mistress’ return.  After helping to towel Her dry, Mistress declared that the hair colouring had been successful and i felt glad that i had at least done a passable job there.

We ate lunch together, which Mistress had prepared and then it was time for me to leave.  As i dressed, Mistress again took a good look at and fondled my breasts and nipples.  She is certain that they will be lactating soon.  i told Her that i was now taking the fenugreek and She has suggested that i get a prescription for more Domperidone.  Mistress then had me kneel before Her and briefly worship Her body, not for long but, in Her words, “long enough for me to get a taste of what i will be missing” and i will miss Her, a lot.  However, just by going regularly to Her house and doing my chores, i will feel close to Her and She will continue to control much of my life even while She is away so although i will miss Her, i will still be in Her service and under Her control.

Mistress also had to go out so we left together and went first to the local shopping mall where i had a house key cut.  Mistress gave me instructions on how to work the burglar alarm and then sent me back to the house to test the key while She continued on with Her own affairs.  i was to phone Her and confirm that all was well, that i could get into the house and disarm and set the alarm.  All of this i did.  Mistress has also left me with two pairs of Her shoes that i must take and get caps put on the heels.  i should be able to do this myself if i can find the caps of the right size and shape.

Sadly, the breast pump did not arrive but i do now have a key and an authorisation to collect it once it does so at least i should have it by Tuesday when i go to clean.  Also, i got a late email from Mistress this evening telling me that She got some Domperidone for me so all is set for a combined herbal, medical and physio assault on my breasts to get them lactating once the pump arrives.  Mistress was also kind enough to advise me to wear shields once i do stats to lactate so that my wife will not notice.  i had been thinking a little about that issue and am glad to have been given some further advice.

So, i have had an interesting day if only briefly with Mistress Ana.  Our conversation ranged widely as ever but when discussing D/s issues, She continues to make it clear to me about Her concerns over Sexually Transmitted Infections (STIs) and why She will keep me in chastity and will not be comfortable sharing me.  She is absolutely right on the issue of STIs and i am more than content to go along with Her rules.  i am just as concerned about my own health as well as that of Mistress and cannot afford to run any risk at all of getting any infection or disease of that type.  This also has a great bearing on how things proceed with Lady Dynah.  i am happy to say that although She is still clearly angry at me, She is at least communicating and while our D/s relationship may come to an end, She has at least indicated that our friendship will not.  i shall write to Her again soon but do not want to rush things or bother Her too much until i sense that things are improving.

And so, as far as Mistress Ana is concerned, it was Her hair today and She will be gone tomorrow but through the CB-2000 chastity device and my list of chores and the lactation regime She has put me under, She will be with me constantly in mind if not in body.

Tuesday July 21st 2009 – Serving Mistress Ana, pain and pleasure

Oooohhhhhh, i felt so horny this morning!  i woke up to tingling tits and a strong desire to fondle them and also to try and relieve my need for an orgasm.  However, fortunately (or sadly) i had an early morning conference call with a potential client from the USA and so was quickly out of bed and over to the office.

The good news today was that school holidays are over and my wife was back to work and the even better news was that i was going to see Mistress Ana.  i have a feeling that this was as much the cause of my state of arousal as anything and so as soon as i had finished on the phone, i slipped into  matching red and black lace bra and panties, whore’s underwear for a slut.  i certainly felt slutty today and could not get over to Mistress Ana’s house fast enough and was cursing the increased traffic on the roads all the way there.

i wrote about whipping, pain, punishment and pleasure a few days ago and this morning my words were put to the test.  After i knelt and recited my Oath, Mistress reminded me that i had not yet been punished for various misdemeanours and that She had so far been very lenient with me.  i was of course aware of this and appreciated it so it was no surprise when i was ordered to strip and then climb onto Her bed and remain on all fours.  Mistress attached a leg spreader to my ankles and then fastened my wrists to the spreader also such that i was forced head down onto the bed and my ass fully exposed.  Mistress gave my ass a sound beating with both a riding crop and a paddle and also whipped my cock and balls.  Yes, it hurt and yes, i will carry the reminder for my transgressions for a few days but it was both necessary and welcome for it served to remind me of my status and position in Her life and Mistress’ Ownership and control of me.

While so exposed to Her, Mistress removed the chastity device and inspected my cock and balls.  It felt wonderful to have Her hands gripping my genitals – or should i say Her genitals – and i mentally begged Her to continue for i so wanted to cum.  However, it was not to be.  Mistress returned Her attention to my ass and after inserting a butt plug before administering more paddling and strokes of the crop to my already tender ass, She removed it and then raped my ass with my own strap-on.  i was guilty here of another transgression.  i had not given myself an enema.  i know i should have done this and regret that i forgot to do so.  i will not forget in future.  It did not stop Mistress raping me though and i confess to moving in time with Her thrusts and to enjoying being penetrated by Her.  Mistress though was not so satisfied with the size of strap-on that i had brought and advised that She likes big black ones to use on Her subs and so i have made a mental note to get one before i serve Her again.

Mistress finally finished and i was left to replace the CB-2000 chastity device and then clean the toys, still feeling horny, in fact more horny than ever and now with no hope of release for some considerable time for Mistress will be going away on vacation for 6 weeks or so on Friday.  Mistress then called me to get on my knees before Her and worship Her which i did with alacrity.  Ooohhhh, this was heaven and worth all of the pain i had experienced earlier this morning.  i suckled Her magnificent breasts and then lapped at Her altar and suckled on Her clitoris, felt my head being crushed between Her legs as She drew my and my tongue deeper into Her.  i wanted to remain there for ever but it was not to be.  Once satisfied, Mistress had me get dressed, fully “en femme” in my maid’s uniform, black stockings with the lace and cute bows at the top, black patent stiletto heeled pumps with an ankle strap, red wig and my red and black lace whore’s panties but no bra for Mistress loves to play with my nipples.

For the rest of the morning, i busied myself with ironing Mistress’ clothes, making the occasional coffee for Her and also being interviewed about who i really was.  Mistress wants me to continue with cleaning Her house and doing Her garden while She is away on vacation and, although Her son is comfortable with the idea of my doing so, quite rightly advised Her that She needed to know more about me.  i felt quite comfortable in telling Her as much as She wished to know and gave Her my business card and showed Her my driving license which She copied into a document that authorised me to collect a package from the Post Office.  That package will be the breast pump which W/we checked out together on the internet and successfully bought at a discounted price on E-bay.  Mistress has been very open with me and also today showed me many pictures of Her and Her family.  She has confided a lot in me about Her background and Her family etc. and i feel very honoured and shall of course fully respect and guard those confidences.

The breast pump i have bought

With the ironing complete, Mistress decided it was time for me to take Her to lunch and had me change back into my male outer clothes.  While i undressed though, Mistress once again began to fondle and suckle at my breasts, squeezing them and sucking hard on my nipples.  She is as excited about my potential lactation as i am and She noticed that my breasts were fuller.  Mistress thinks that i will soon be lactating and the pump will of course bring it on sooner rather than later.  i was back in heaven as She worked my breasts and nipples and so wanted to hold Her tightly and reciprocate but that is not for me, a slave, to do without being ordered to do so and so i just stood there feeling highly emotional and aroused as Mistress continued to fondle with and suckle at my breasts.  She has advised me to get some fenugreek herb and to drink it as a tea which i will and also mentioned a product called Milkmaid Tea from the USA that is produced to assist lactation but Mistress Ana was unsure if this can be imported into Australia and, having now checked it out, it is not.  So, it will be fenugreek tea now that the Domperidone tablets have run out.

We did finally get to go out for lunch only to find that the restaurant we had chosen had closed early due to lack of customers!  After an argument with a young manager at reception about trade practices and false advertising, we left and went to the pub next door where we had a sandwich and continued to chat about various aspects of our relationship and about the Lady Dynah request to transfer me.  We both decided that it would be a waste of time and so i will write again to Lady Dynah and pass that on.

Mistress Ana leaves on Friday but wants to have Her hair done on Thursday and i will go and do Her hair for Her.  This will be a new experience for me and i look forward to it eagerly.  At the same time, Mistress will give me a key to Her house so that i can continue to serve Her even while She is away.  i feel extremely honoured and also very, very lucky to have come into contact with Her and to be taken into Her confidence and to have become one of Her slaves.  Mistress has mentioned a number of plans She has for using me when She has friends around, not just on my own but also with Her other slave and i cannot deny that this excites me very much and i am looking forward to and hoping for a long and lasting relationship with this wonderful Lady and my new Owner.