Tuesday November 10th 2009 – stiff, sore and disappointed

Well, today was a difficult day, not least because i woke up stiff and sore from my sporting exertions of yesterday.  i really do need to improve my fitness and lose some weight!  The other bad thing about today was not being able to visit and serve Mistress Ana.  i was so looking forward to it that because it had been postponed until Friday i really did not feel like getting out of bed this morning.  i did though and slipped into a white lace bra and pink spotted panties with cute bows.  A splash of perfume and i began to feel better but somehow going to work was less than appealing.  Nevertheless, to work i went and decided to knuckle down and get on with it so as to hopefully free up more time later in the week when perhaps i might persuade Mistress to visit me here on Thursday, a day when i was expecting to be alone in the office and “en femme” all day.  However, even those thoughts went awry when during the morning i got a phone call from a plumber who chose Thursday to come and fix a pipe that has needed replacing for ages.  Even though he says he will be here first thing in the morning, tradesmen have a habit of showing up late and taking longer to do jobs than they first estimate so it has probably killed off any possibility of Mistress Ana visiting me.

i would love to have Mistress Ana visit me in my office so She can see my environment and my full wardrobe of shoes, ladies clothing, wigs and toys but i have no idea whether She would also think it a good idea.  i firmly believe it would give Her even more insight into my mind and with that even greater influence and control on me which is something i would really love but as in all matters, this is for Mistress to decide what is best so, having written to Her and made the invitation, if not for this Thursday for some other time, this sissy slut and slave can only wait and hope.

So little else to report today although i did chat briefly with Goddess Joyce who is now really ready to give birth to little Vincent.  He is due next week, more or less the time i shall arrive in Peru so i may well be there for the birth.  All very exciting!  Such a pity i was not able to get the lactation going but i might give it another try while in Peru, especially if Goddess Joyce would allow me to wet nurse Her baby.  Wouldn’t that be something for a sissy?  Right now, i cannot think of anything more fulfilling for a would be female like myself.

Monday November 9th 2009 – Securely chastised again and dreaming of Mistress

After the difficulties with the smallest ring of the CB-2000, i am happy to say that the next size up seems to be working well.  It is at least not restricting circulation and causing my balls to swell like the smallest size did and it is definitely a closer fit than was the middles size so i am hoping that now there will be no inadvertent escapism by my rogue left testicle.

i spent today working hard in the office, wearing the new shoes that Mistress Ana brought me from Thailand while seated at my desk and with pale blue lace, matching bra and panties beneath my male outer clothes.  Feeling secure and now more comfortable in my cock cage meant that i was able to get on with my work without worrying about it and so with fewer distractions, i managed to put in a very successful day, turning out another completed project and getting it mailed off to my client.

i was out during the evening at a family event, playing soccer with my two boys before going to my eldest son’s house for dinner.  This was the first game of soccer i have played in 30 years and it showed!  Although in my day i had been a good player, this evening my mind was working so far ahead of my body that my age really told on me.  i was not disgraced however, in fact i still managed to surprise some of the younger guys i was playing against, none of them less than 25 years my junior!

Playing soccer in the CB-2000 was not an issue, which surprised me.  Going into the game, i was a bit tentative, not knowing how it might feel and how much it might interfere with my movements but i need not have worried for i never really noticed it at all.

On returning home late in the evening, i managed to make an excuse to go over to the office briefly.  i wanted to go online and make sure that there were no messages from Mistress Ana about tomorrow and my going to Her house to serve Her.  i was so looking forward to serving Her tomorrow that i felt real deep disappointment when i say Her message that the builders were still busy at Her house and that my visit must be postponed until Friday.  i adore Her and love serving Her so much and W/we are both so frequently away traveling that i hate to miss any opportunity to be with Her and although there is still Friday to look forward to it only serves to increase my longing and my need for Her control.

i am wondering though whether Mistress Ana might like to visit me while the builders are at Her house.  i shall be alone in my office all day on Thursday, a day i shall use to be “en femme” all day.  i would love Mistress Ana to visit me here so that She can see all of my wardrobe and my toys and also be able to picture finally the environment in which i live and work so that when we chat online She will be able to visualise my circumstances at any one moment.  She would not need necessarily to stay very long but it would be enough for Her to get even deeper into my psyche and strengthen the control that She has on me by increasing Her knowledge of my circumstances.  It is just a thought and Mistress may well see things quite differently from me but i will make the invitation in any event.