Saturday November 7th – Sunday November 8th 2009; Chastity trouble!

Saturday was a day for working in my own garden.  After going out and doing some grocery shopping, my wife had plans for me to work all day in the garden.  A hole needed to be dug down to a pipe that feeds into our house’s BioMax sewage system, a system that recycles our waste water and uses it for irrigating the garden.  During winter, when the water table is high, the system is leaking inwards, flooding with groundwater and causing us all sorts of problems.  We have traced the problem now to just a short section of pipe close tot he main tank itself and a hole needed to be dug down to it with the aim of hopefully finding out the problem.  This was my job on Saturday.  i dug and dug for about 3 hours and finally exposed the pipe at a depth of about 2.5 metres.  Tree roots have got into joints in the pipe and into the tank wall where the pipe goes into it and so it will have to be replaced.

After all of this exertion, especially not being used to such work, i was tired, stiff and sore and so took myself off to have a long soak in the bath.  It was there that i discovered that my left testicle had escaped again from the CB-2000 chastity device.  How? i have no idea for it is impossible to get it back and difficult enough to get it into the base ring of the cock cage as it is, even before locking it in place.  i felt very deflated for i know i shall be punished for having had to remove the device and replace it yet again.  i decided that i clearly needed to change the ring size on the CB-2000 to something smaller in diameter.  i was using the ring that was in the middle of the size range but decided i would now try to fit the smallest diameter.  This was easier said than done and it took me about 20 minutes of effort to persuade my left testicle to join the right testicle inside the ring.  However, i managed to fit into the smallest ring and felt better once i had the cock cage fully in place and locked.  However, i used a small padlock this time rather than the coded security tag because i was not sure that the small ring might in fact be too small and wanted to be sure all was well before sealing myself inside the device again.

It was as well that i did because by Sunday, my scrotum had swollen and my balls were aching.  The ring was too tight!  i decided to remove it and go for the next size up, the diameter between what i had been wearing and the smallest.  This too proved to be more difficult than it looked and i struggled for a good 15 minutes to remove the smallest ring, using a large amount of vaseline to help ease my swollen balls through the ring.  Next, came the equally difficult task of getting the balls through the slightly larger diameter ring.  Already lubricated, i managed it in a shorter time and once again secured the cock cage with a padlock rather than a security seal, preferring to be sure that the ring is not too tight before using the tag.

All of this is quite distressing for i have come to feel secure and comfortable in the CB-2000 and the thought of being able to escape from it does not make me happy for it defeats the whole purpose and sense of belonging and control that it gives me if it cannot be removed without my Owner, Mistress Ana knowing and approving.  i sincerely hope that the ring size now in place will be enough to prevent any escape whether inadvertent or intended.

Friday November 6th 2009 – Frustration while with Mistress Ana and Her builders!

There was no email message from Mistress Ana this morning and so i depilated, exfoliated, showered, moisturised, and perfumed myself and slipped into turquoise lace bra and pale blue lace panties beneath my male clothes and headed off to Mistress’ house.  i arrived there a little late for as i was leaving home, my wife phoned to ask me to drop off Her spectacles at Her workplace, a small diversion but one which nonetheless made me later than i wanted to be.

i arrived at Mistress’ house and was not surprised to find builders on the scene.  Mistress was pleased to see me and to my delight, presented me with a gift from Thailand, a lovely pair of sling back, low heeled, open toed shoes in pink, grey and brown.  i was thrilled to receive them, especially as i have pink, grey and brown clothes that will go well with the shoes.  i am so very lucky to belong to such a thoughtful and caring Mistress.  Mistress also gave me some Thai chocolates and candies and made me feel very special.

As for the builders, they busied themselves around the place while Mistress and i sat and chatted over coffee.  i was not asked to change “en femme” so yesterday’s fantasy was never going to materialise, for which i was grateful although should Mistress have wished to see me so humiliated, i would not have hesitated for even a moment.  As we chatted, i realised that i had made a mistake with the making up of the bed in Mistress’ son’s room downstairs and know that i shall be punished for it.  Fortunately, it was not entirely my fault and Mistress will not be too hard on me for it.  W/we chatted a lot about Her son, who has now moved out, and his girlfriend and a very embarassing experience for Mistress’ garden slave, Lucy, who was busy working in the garden when seen by the son’s girlfriend who called for the police, suspecting Lucy to be a burglar.  This would have been the only burglar in history to rob someone and do their garden at the same time!

Mistress told me of the reaction of both Her daughter in law and also Her own daughter, both of whom are aware of the fact that Mistress has slaves who do chores for Her, Lucy in the garden and me in the house.  The daughter in law it seems has asked that i go and clean Her house and Mistress’ daughter would be delighted to have me crawl on all fours to worship Her feet.  Both are young, attractive women whom i would consider it an honour to serve should Mistress Ana require me to do so.  i belong to Her first and foremost and i truly adore Her and could only ever serve others at Her request or command.  i feel so fortunate to belong to Her and to be in service to such a wonderful Domme after searching so far and wide over many years, that i am devoted to Her service first and foremost and above all else.

W/we also chatted about travel and about Mistress’ desire to visit Peru on vacation with Her daughter, possibly next year.  This idea has got me very excited for it would be an opportunity for me to be clean shaven and “en femme” serving Mistress 24/7 for the duration of the vacation.  my mind is now racing with the possibilities of being their sissy tour guide for 2 or 3 weeks in Peru.  i know that i would be in heaven and i pray that it will actually come to pass.  i dream of going with Mistress Ana and daughter to the salon where i go with Goddess Joyce to get a pedicure and manicure together as well as going shopping together and doing all of the touristy things.  This whole concept will now occupy my mind and i shall dream and plan the whole vacation until it does become reality.

With the builders still busy around the house, Mistress and i went out for lunch and also did a little grocery shopping.  i felt a little frustrated at not being able to dress “en femme” today, it being one of the days of the week when i would normally spend the full day at work fully dressed with blouse, skirt, wig and jewellery but there was no resentment for i was spending time with my Mistress and Owner.  However, after lunch, with the builders still at the house, i had to take my leave having been unable to serve Mistress personally and as i drove away i felt incredibly horny.  i had so needed to serve Her that by the time i got home, i ached inside.  A genuine ache of real need such that time cannot go quickly enough for me between now and Tuesday when i return to serve Her.

Thursday November 5th 2009 – A quiet day and a fantasy

After working all night and finally finishing around 5.30am, i went over to the house and had breakfast with my wife before heading off to bed around 6.00am.  i slept through to 11.00am and then it was up again and back to work.  i slipped into an olive grey lace bra and grey lace panties before putting on my male outer clothes and then headed into the City for a meeting with a client.  The meeting went very well but took most of the afternoon.  In the evening, i was online, hoping to catch Mistress Ana for a chat and to confirm that i was to visit Her tomorrow.  Sadly, i was unable to chat with Her so simply sent an email that i hoped She might see and respond to before i left for Her house in the morning.  Essentially, if i heard nothing more from Her, i would assume i was to go to Her house.

i am aware that Mistress was expecting to have builders at Her house fixing up some subsidence issues and so am unsure whether i might cause a problem by being at Her house while the builders are there but i shall go in the morning if i hear nothing from Her for i am sure that even if there are builders at the house, Mistress will know how to handle the situation.  However, my slutty feminine mind cannot help but speculate as to what might be, imagining myself fully “en femme” and dusting or cleaning at Mistress’ house with macho builders around and the potential in such a scenario for my humiliation and possible use as a slut to one or all of the builders.  Realistically, i  do not believe Mistress would allow such a thing to happen but i confess to the fantasy and to the reality that i am truly a whore.