i have no idea how it could have happened but it has. During the night, i recall feeling a dull ache in my genitals and, half asleep, moving my hand down to the cock cage and pulling it gently until it felt right, at the same time becoming more awake as the ache became a severe pain in my left testicle. Further feeling around there under the cover of the bedclothes reassured me that the CB-2000 was still securely in place even thought it did not feel quite right. i awoke this morning knowing something was amiss and, on getting to the bathroom, discovered that my left testicle had escaped the CB-2000. i tried to get it back in without removing the cock cage but to no avail. How on earth it got out, i have no idea but escape it did.
i was now faced with a dilemma. i could leave things as they were which would require explanation sooner or later to Mistress Ana and be decidedly uncomfortable in the meantime, or remove and then replace the cock cage using another seal, which would also require explanation and, i am sure, result in some form of punishment. In fact, i was certain that i would be punished no matter what but decided it would be better to be truthful whether or not Mistress Ana believed my explanation. The thought then occurred to me that i might as well be hung for a sheep as a lamb and take the opportunity to masturbate. Believe it or not though, i have never felt less like masturbating! i was more preoccupied with how on earth the testicle could have got through the narrow confining gap in the CB-2000 rings and the consequences of it having done so to think about masturbating. Furthermore, the horniness that develops while wearing the device is as much a psychological or emotional need as it is a physical need and i felt that i wanted to orgasm only when told to do so by Mistress Ana. To cheat would be cheating myself as much as it would Her for the ultimate orgasm is one that is emotionally shared and not a furtive secret masturbation.
So, i removed the cock cage before getting in the shower and my Friday morning depilation, exfoliation and moisturisation ritual. It gave me the chance to shave again my genitals and thoroughly clean that area. After this, i replaced the chastity device using seal number CW8YD. A splash of perfume later, i slipped into matching pink lace bra and panties, a white blouse, pink calf length skirt, long red wig and pink stiletto heeled sandals. Before starting work, i gathered up my weeks laundry and put it through the washing machine. Today was beautifully sunny and warm and i knew i could get all my washing done and dry before my wife returned home. i spent the full working day in my office then completely “en femme.” It may be surprising for some to know that such days when i am dressed “en femme” are some of my most productive and today was no exception. i think this stems from simply being so comfortable and at home dressed as a woman that i am less distracted whereas days when i am only able to wear feminine underwear beneath my male outer clothes and ladies shoes while at my desk, i am much more conscious of my situation and on guard, so less focused on work.
Nothing else much to report on today. No chats with anyone. However, i did come across a wig for sale that i love. Though i regularly wear my long red wig, i would love to have a shorter style that is perhaps more in keeping with my age and i just adore this one, a bargain at just $55.
i also discovered Christian Laboutin shoes – so many gorgeous heels on view i was drooling, and an article on “How high does one go with one’s heels? “ Such interesting reading that i not only voted on the 5″ or higher but also decided to provide the link. The final thing was my Gravatar. i have been creating virtual looks for myself on a virtual shopping site and decided that i could link some of the looks i have created there for myself to my Gravatar within my blog. i am still not sure how effective it will be but i have a lot of fun virtually trying on different clothes for different activities. It can’t equal the real thing but it is the next best thing for a would be gurl!
