I.D Sarrieri – Lingerie “Style Addicted”

i could not resist sharing this delicious lingerie from I.D Sarrieri:-
Sculpt your silhouette with a body triangle cups, fully tailored Chantilly lace and silk satin decorated with tulle and Swarovski crystals. Wear it underneath to anything, be it a scipitoare cocktail dress, a tuxedo shirt androgynous bold or your lover.
A view from the side and the back.
Fill a balconette bra elegant silhouette with this neburetat Chantilly lace, a jewel in the field of underwear. Decorated with satin details miniature silk and Swarovski crystals, when combined with slipii perfect, this bra advocates magical sensations!
A Chantilly lace bra is a noble piece that will enrich your collection of lingerie. Rich in details such as silk satin, tulle and the delicate precious Swarovski crystals, this item can not miss in your arsenal. Straps decorated with Chantilly lace can be the perfect alibi for a half-naked shoulder. Wear it with a pair of briefs suitable for a complete look.
Wear the right bra, these briefs V-string whose Chantilly lace petals are meant to decorate your hips will give you a lush mood. Details of precious silk satin and Swarovski crystals will make you look like talk “only” about underwear.
The view from the back.
Also available in white, add a note with your bohemian look of these Brazilian briefs Chantilly lace, enriched with elements of silk satin, tulle and Swarovski crystals. Complete your basic kit bra lingerie with a complementary finish for comfortable, rich in details.
The view from the back.

 

Another week has gone by………………….

Another week has gone by since my life felt like it had hit rock bottom with my wife discovering my online identity.  The last time i posted anything personal, i was very fearful for the future of my marriage and for my life as Roxie.  Since then, i have spoken to my wife on the phone and things seem not to be as bad as i had feared although it is clear that we need to sit down together and discuss where we go from here.  We neither of us want to split and end the marriage but somehow i need to establish a means whereby i can continue my life as Roxie for at least a couple of days a week.  This will be the real test.  So, although i am feeling a little better about life, i still have this issue hanging over me like The Sword of Damocles!
Life away from home right now is exceptionally hectic and there is a lot of pressure on the business we are trying to establish.  So much so that i was highly relieved when weekend came around and i was able to slip into my nightdress on Friday night and be Roxie until Monday morning.  On Saturday, i decided another shopping expedition might lift my spirits and so returned to the same shopping mall i had visited ther previous weekend.  After having a coffee in an open air shop outside the mall i went in and went to the same shop where i had seen and tried on the black dress last week.  I found it and to my absolute delight discovered that this week it was benig sold at a 40% discount.  i tried it on again and it fit nicely and so i bought it at a cost of just $34!  I do so love a bargain.
Here are a couple of pictures taken before i ventured forth:-
Dressed for my shopping expedition.
Dressed for my shopping expedition.
All ready to go shopping!
All ready to go shopping!
I felt so flushed with success with my bargain dress that i decided to buy a good bottle of red wine to have with dinner along with some raspberries for dessert before going home and putting on the dress and enjoying my little solo diner party.
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i did drink rather too much but then i needed cheering up!
Come Sunday, i decided that i needed to get out and about again so i dressed and walked to another shopping mall and browsed, looking for shoes this time.  My red ballet flats have just about had it so was looking for a replacement in the same or very similar shade of red.  However, i had no luck and even tried the much bigger mall that i had been in the previous day.  No luck there either but i did stop for a coffee.  Here is a picture taken before i ventured out into the world.
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The upshot of my weekend is that i feel happier and more relaxed than before but still knowing i have a major hurdle to overcome when i get home next weekend.

 

Mind in turmoil but a shopping expedition provides temporary relief.

My mind is in turmoil right now because early this week the proverbial s#*t hit the fan as far as my online presence goes.  Quite unexpectedly and certainly not be design, some mail arrived at my home addressed to me as Roxandra Fox.  This prompted my wife to Google the name and of course she discovered my online feminine identity.  i was promptly sent an email demanding i close down all of my accounts or else!  
Apart from being shocked as to how anyone had linked Roxandra Fox with my home address, i was also extremely dismayed at the hurt this had brought to my wife.  She knows of my cross-dressing activities and although she does not approve, turns a blind eye as long as it is discrete and she is not confronted by evidence.  She had no idea of the extent of my online persona.  Naturally, she was shocked and reacted promptly to preserve family dignity i suppose.  
Obviously, she was able to make the connection between my two personalities because she knows both very well but i sincerely doubt that anyone else might make the connection and she did so only because she sought out Roxandra Fox.  No one else who knows my vanilla persona would ever Google Roxandra Fox. Nevertheless, i closed a number of accounts and re-named this one in the hope that it will not show up if she Googles Roxandra Fox again.  When i do so, it doesn’t show so fingers crossed.
Whatever the case, even if she discovers that this is still active, it will bring things to a head.  I have tried many times to persuade her to learn more about my condition. i do not cross dress because i am kinky i do so because i have gender dysphoria.  i have visited and had a number of sessions with a clinical psychotherapist and expert on gender issues and know for a fact that i have this condition.  It is a condition that a person inherits in the womb, before birth, and results in the physical gender differing or being opposite from the brain gender.  There is no cure for the condition other than gender reassignment surgery and my desire to be feminine and live as a woman will never go away or subside, in fact it will get stronger as indeed it has throughout my life.
i have many times considered gender reassignment surgery but, while i was responsible for my children it was not a good idea.  The world already has more than its share of transitioning and transgender people who as soon as the announce to the world that they are changing gender lose their jobs, become anathema to their family and friends and can never really afford the costs of the medications and surgery they have to endure.  It seems very unfair that other birth defects are covered by most national health systems but gender dysphoria is not.  i was not prepared to risk the future of my children by taking the gender reassignment option.  Since they all have become adult and nowlive independently, the story is a little different but i still do not want to have the surgery for the impact it will probably have on my family relationships.
My wife did not marry me to be married to another woman so it would be grossly unfair of me to ask her to do so.  I also love her more than i have words to say or write and the fact that i have hurt her badly this week hurts me all the more. I have long decided that as long as i can be feminine whenver the opportunity to be so discretely arises, i could be content.  And that is very much how thngs have been for a number of years.  When my wife is at work in the city, i can be Roxie and i can be Roxie online whenever i wish.
Things were going to have to change though in any event.  My wife has just retired so will now be home more of the time and i will not have 2 regular days in the week when Roxie can come out of hiding.  I was already mulling how to broach the subject when this has happened and now i am going to have to do so from a disadvantageous position.  And do so i must.
So, my mind is in turmoil.  how do i broach the subject and then how do i persuade my wife to not only listen to me but to become fully appraised with my condition.  There is always the danger that she will not want to discuss anything but will simply lay down the law and issue ultimatums.  I have no idea how she will react when i get to speak to her next and i am not in any hurry to do so for i am hoping that time will cool her anger a little bit.  One ultimatum has already been issued and the threat of having to explain myself to my children cut me deeply.  So much so that i sat down yesterday and wrote a letter to them which i have not yet sent and hope i will never need to do so.  It was written through a veil of tears as my mind contemplated a future alienated from them.
I am currently alone in Santiago, Chile; and, while i have friends here, i could not face meeting up with them this weekend and pretending things were all OK. I felt lonely and depressed, miserable in fact. i spent the morning mooching about in my rented apartment, answering emails and such but my heart was not really into doing anything constructive.  By lunch time, i had to get out so, as Roxie, i went shopping in the hope that time out as Roxie could help cheer me somewhat.  i shopped in a large commercial centre with a large variety of stores including 3 department stores.  As Christmas approaches, the whole centre was alive with the festive spirit and the shops were crowded. But it was here that i found peace and browsing through racks of dresses, blouses and skirts took my mind off my problems.
Dressed to go shopping
Dressed to go shopping
 I tried on dresses in a number of stores but found that the Chilean idea of large is actually a medium and extra large is only large in many stores.  So, it was hard finding anything that i liked that was in my size.  i did come across 2 dresses that were on sale in one store and i liked the look of both but could i get into them?  i took them to the fitting rooms to see and was delighted that they both fit.  i tried taking pictures of myself in them but i am not good at taking selfies and you are free to laugh at the results:-
The red dress was good but did nothing to hide my pot belly!
The red dress was good but did nothing to hide my pot belly!
I really liked this sexy black dress and had worked out better ho w to take a selfie picture.
I really liked this sexy black dress and had worked out better ho w to take a selfie picture.
Even though they were reduced, each dress was still close to $50 so i was never going to buy both but might just get one of them.  So, i decided to hold off and see what i could find in other stores.  i found a lovely black lace dress in another store that also fit and, at only $10 was well within my budget so i splashed out and bought it and immediately felt better.  i felt so much better that i also treated myself to some sexy panty hose and an evening meal washed down with a bottle of wine.  i decided not to take a picture of the dress in the fitting room but rather to wait until i had decent shoes and some jewellery to wear with it.  So, the pictures below were taken today.
The dress from the front.
The dress from the front.
Showcasing the dress and the panty hose.
Showcasing the dress and the panty hose.
Another view showing the dress from the side and also the new panty hose
Another view showing the dress from the side and also the new panty hose
The dress from behind.

The dress from behind.

The entire exercise made me feel better but do not be fooled by the smiles.  Inside, i am still unhappy and worried about my future.  The shopping expedition relieved the turmoil for an afternoon but today has seen me back to being both unhappy and worried.  Only time will tell what the future holds for Roxie Fox.

Shoes: Pleasure and Pain – The V&A Summer 2015 Exhibition

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From the weird to the wonderful, from painful to pleasure, the Victoria & Albert Museum in London is preparing a shoe exhibition for 2015 that will cover footwear from ancient to modern times so it is an opportunity for shoe fetishists to get a glimpse of footwear fashion through the ages. Here are just a few examples of style that will be on show.

Originally posted on A Stairway To Fashion:

The Victoria and Albert Museum, London,  prepares an extraordinary exhibition for the summer fashion of 2015, and the main characters will be SHOES: Pleasure and Pain. The exhibition will take visitors on a cultural journey, from ancient Egypt to nowadays, with more than 200 pairs of historic and contemporary shoes from around the world on display, some for the first time. Dramatic shapes, head spinning high heels, developments in footwear technology.

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Invisible Naked Version by Andreia Chaves, 2011

Shoes are one of the most telling aspects of dress,” Helen Persson, the exhibition’s curator, said. “Beautiful, sculptural objects, they are also powerful indicators of gender, status, identity, taste and even sexual preference. Our choice in shoes can help project an image of who we want to be.”

The exhibition, occupying two floors, is divided into three sections: Transformation – presenting shoes that are part of legends…

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Biological differences in MTFs and cisgender males

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This is so very important when we try to explain ourselves to our loved ones. They find it very hard to accept that we are other than our birth or physical gender and that our condition is a medical one and so the more we can disseminate this medical and scientific evidence of the differences betwee MTF transgender people and normal and homosexual males the better.

Originally posted on Liz - Day By Day:

People continue to misunderstand that there are very real biological differences between the average cisgender male and male-to-female transsexuals. Below is an important image to understand that I extracted from Transgender Chicago: The New Health Frontier.

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The image above is the central nucleus of the bed nucleus of the stria terminalis (BSTc), in the thalamus. Note that heterosexual and homosexual males have nearly identical brain structures in that region. Note that biological females have very different structures in that region from those of the males. And finally note that MTF transsexuals have brain structures that are very close to the female’s and nothing at all like the male’s neurological structures.

There are numerous other studies that highlight the biological differences between MTFs and cisgender males. What this image and many other studies show is that, in the brain where our essential self lies, that MTFs truly are female, not male.

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Victoria’s Secret Takes London

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Pictures of the Victoria’s Secret 2014 London lingerie show showing some beautiful lingerie designs in spactacular fashion.

Originally posted on A Stairway To Fashion:

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Victoria’s Secret London 2014 Show

The most anticipated and explosive show, with the highest concentration of gorgeous models per square meter, Victoria’s Secret, rocked London on Tuesday night at Earls Court Exhibition Center.

Adriana Lima, Candice Swanepoel, Alessandra Ambrosio, Doutzen Kroes and Josephine Skriver, had the eyes of 3400 guests fixed on them – athletic and feminine bodies, adorned in feathers and gold, breathtaking butterfly and dragon shaped wings, enhanced by the fantastic Victoria’s Secret lingerie. A grand spectacle, the type of which you would never tire off, a spectacle that kept going under the applause of an ecstatic audience. And how could it have been otherwise?!

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Victoria’s Secret London 2014 Show

About the beauties on the catwalk Roland Mouret said:  “They were the best bums and the best legs.

As Victoria’s Secret has already accustomed us, the live performances were present this time as well – Taylor Swift,

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